This is a follow up to a blog I posted on Blogger almost two years ago:
What Not To Do When You're Drunk
It's almost been two years since I wrote that blog. I read it again just now and all I can do is just praise God for what He has brought me through. To see what God was worked on in my heart and in my life and given me hope is unfathomable. What a marvelous work He has done.
It took me two years to get over my ex-boyfriend. In that blog I called out my ex for all the hurt I had to endure because of him. But through that relationship God has taught me soo much and now I'm living this portion of my life with the right thinking that glorifies God. So many mistakes that I made, I was very naive and very clueless but God in His mercy and patience, gave me wisdom and understanding. He gave me the will to endure and to expose every hurt and healed every wound.
I am so much stronger after this relationship because I have understood what true love really is. This kind of love only comes from a deep intimate relationship with Christ Jesus where I am 100% exposed and beyond 100% safe. I know my worth, I no longer tell myself that nobody cares and I should not be here. I have a purpose, I am fearfully and wonderfully made by a God that loves me fiercely.
God has mercifully taught me to forgive my ex and to forgive myself. Two years later I have not made contact with him but graciously I pray for his salvation. I realized where his end is going to be and thus God has removed bitterness and hatred from my heart and has given me a heart of mercy and compassion. There's no need for me to want revenge because I know that in the end although he hurt me greatly, what is coming to him for his disobedience encourages me to plead with God to grant him mercy. Only God could make this possible as I know that he was my only hope and the only one that could fix the broken pieces.
Praise God for His marvelous plan that in this experience, I hope to encourage many. The right man that I'm waiting for, I'm waiting on God's timing. His instruction and His action. So much love I have learned through and so much I can't wait to share.
Really nice posts.....both of them.
ReplyDeleteWow Kay, my heart goes out to the girl who you were 2 years ago, and I understand what you were going through.
ReplyDeleteBut what joy!! God has grown you SO much since then! All I could think while reading your old blog was, "Just wait. God's got great things in store for you!" And He did, and He does. And He is faithful and loving and always comes through! And I am so glad to call you my sister and to have the privilege of knowing you and getting to watch you grow. This blog was very encouraging to me.
Seth